Carpe Diem

Si uite-asa am implinit un anisor de cand sunt in Dubai. Imi aduc aminte si acum data de 30 ianuarie 2012. Camera mea arata ca o expozitie de haine, pantofi si amintiri. Bagajele erau mult prea neincapatoare pentru a impacheta 24 de ani si a-i lua cu mine intr-o tara despre care nu stiam mai nimic. Sentimente mixte de dor, parere de rau, incantare, curiozitate. Da, recunosc ca m-a bufnit plansul cu gandul la bunicii mei, la parintii si la prietenii pe care ii lasam in urma. Era un inceput nou, departe de tot ceea ce imi era cunoscut, departe de confortul pe care familia mi-l oferea in exces, departe de dragalaseniile mamei, de deliciosul schnitzel pe care bunica mi-l facea saptamanal ( ca sa nu zic zilnic ). Grele sunt despartirile, mai ales pentru cineva care nu a fost plecat niciodata mai mult de 2 saptamani de acasa.

  Noaptea aceea a fost lunga...imi treceau tot felul de ganduri prin minte  - cum voi fi eu capabila sa ma descurc singura, fara mama si tata, cand nu stiu nici macar sa gatesc?! Cine ma va mai ingriji atunci cand voi fi bolnava, cine imi va mai da pupicul de noapte buna?  Si uite ca am plecat, fara urme de regret, constienta de faptul ca ma asteapta o experienta unica.

  Da, ma asteptam sa-mi fie greu un timp. Stiti ce? Nu a fost deloc asa. M-am acomodat din prima clipa, mi-am facut prieteni inca din training college, am fost dormica inca de la inceput sa cunosc lume, sa cunosc locuri si sa profit de toate clipele frumoase pe care am sansa sa le traiesc. 

  Lumea intreaga mi s-a asternut la picioare, am ajuns in locuri in care niciodata nu visam sa ajung. Si ce este atat de special la viata mea? Nicio zi nu este la fel. Da, am un program dezordonat, dorm cand altii sunt treji, mananc cand altii dorm. Nu exista ordine, nu exista rutina. Nu stiu cand este miercuri, sambata, joi. Traiesc doar dupa datele din calendar. Si ce-mi mai place! Am avut norocul sa locuiesc cu cele mai bune prietene ale mele. Suntem ca o familie, facem totul impreuna. Punand cap la cap tot ce s-a intamplat in viata mea in ultimele 365 de zile pot sa adaug in valiza mea cu amintiri urmatoarele realizari:

•  am vizitat peste 15 tari
• am castigat cel putin 5 prieteni buni
• am gustat delicatese culinare din toata lumea
• mi-am cumparat o masina
• am plecat in vacanta in Rio de Janeiro
• mi-am revazut prieteni raspanditi pe tot globul
• am planificate alte 3 excursii pe acest an
• am mult mai multa incredere in mine

   Si astea sunt doar cateva dintre implinirile pe anul care a trecut. In 3 zile plec cu fetele la ski in Austria iar in aprilie in vacanta in Cape Town. De Paste ma duc acasa. In rest, cat timp sunt in Dubai, ies in cluburi, ma plimb cu yahtul si ma duc la plaja. Am o viata grea, dupa cum se vede. :) Sa fiu cabin crew nu este un job pe care sa vreau sa-l fac toata viata. Este foarte greu sa iti intemeiezi o familie, sa ai o relatie in adevaratul sens al cuvantului din cauza programului haotic pe care il avem. Dar suntem tineri si frumosi, avem timp sa facem tot ce ne propunem.

   Nu amanati si nu fiti niciodata egoisti cu momentele frumoase de care va puteti bucura. S-ar putea sa nu se mai intoarca. O clipa pe care o pierzi acum, nu o vei mai trai niciodata. Bucurati-va de prezent, de momentul actual, numai de voi depinde cum va traiti fiecare zi. Nu sunt in masura si nici nu vreau sa dau sfaturi de cum sa va bucurati de tot ce e frumos..insa in ultimul an am incercat sa las la o parte tot ce ma intristeaza, tot ce ma supara, tot ce aduce un nor de ploaie pe cerul meu senin. Am fost mai ingaduitoare si mai iertatoare. Am trecut cu vederea peste lucruri care ma suparau odata..acum caut doar sa fiu impacata cu mine. Si pot sa zic ca sunt fericita, nu am regrete, am tot ce imi doresc.

Dream your life, and live your dream!

English

And  It's been one year since I came in Dubai. I still remember the day of 30 January 2012. My room looked like an exhibition of clothes, shoes and memories. Bags were too small to pack 24 years and take them with me in a country about which I knew nothing. Mixed feelings of longing, sorrow, delight, curiosity. Yes, I admit that I burst into tears when thinking of my grandparents, parents and friends I had to leave behind. It was a fresh new start, away from everything I had known, away from my family, from the comfort that I had, away from the delicious schnitzel that my grandmother use to cook every week . Saying goodbye is difficult, especially for someone like me that has never been away from home more than 2 weeks.

  That night was long ... all kinds of thoughts crossed my mind - how will I be able to handle everything my own without mom and dad? Who will take care of me when I'm sick, who would give my goodnight kiss? And here we go, with no trace of regret, aware that a unique experience is expecting me.

  Yes, I expected to have a hard time at the beginning. You know what? It wasn't like that. I liked it from the first moment, I made friends since college training, I waseager  from the beginning to meet people, to get to know places and take advantage of all the beautiful moments that I had the chance to live.

  I had the world at my feet, I've been to places that I've never dreamed to go. What is so special about my life? The fact that every day is different. Yes, I have a crazy schedule, I sleep when others are awake , I sleep when others eat, and so on. No order, no routine. I do not know when it is Wednesday Saturday Thursday. I just live by the dates on the calendar. And I LOVE it! I was fortunate to live with my best friends. We are a family, we do everything together. Putting together everything that has happened in my life in the last 365 days, I can add in my suitcase of  memories the following achievements:

•      I visited more than 15 countries
•     I gained at least 5 good friends
•     I tasted culinary delights from all over the world
•     I bought a car
•     I went on vacation in Rio de Janeiro
•     I've seen my friends scattered across the globe
•     I have 3 other trips planned this year
•     I have much more confidence in myself

   And these are just some of the accomplishments of the past year. In three days, the girls and I are going skiing in Austria and in April on holiday in Cape Town. For Easter I go home. Otherwise, while in Dubai, I go clubbing, attend yacht parties and go to the beach. I have a hard life, as shown above. :) Being cabin crew is not a job that I'd like to do for a lifetime. It's really hard to start a family, to have a relationship with this chaotic life . But we're young and beautiful, we have time to do all we please.

   Do not postpone and never be selfish with the beautiful moments that you have. They may not come back. One lost minute, will never come back again. Enjoy the present, cherrish what you have, it's only up to you how you live each day. I am not the right person to give advice on how to enjoy everything that is beautiful .. but in the past year I tried to leave everything that makes me sad aside, everything that upsets me. I was more tolerant and more forgiving.I'm just looking to be at peace with myself. And I can say that I'm happy, I have no regrets, I have everything I want.

Dream your life and live your dream!